Golden wrote these words immediately after returning from his first mission:

While the taste of my first mission is still fresh, I want to record what I consider
a very important phase in my life. But rather than attempt to write of all that has
or will happen, I shall limit this record to actual combat experiences. Yet, frankly,
where or how to start is my main problem. So much has happened in the past
24 hours that it is hard to believe, let alone write about it.

Yesterday, I was green. Green, untried and curious. Today, although a veteran of the
Battle of Berlin, I’m still curious. How many more like that will I survive? Perhaps
this seems a bit on the pessimistic side. If so, there's good reason. For this
day I have seen Life and Death walk hand in hand. Never before was I so conscious
of my Maker.

 

This morning at 02:00 hours, 33 of us left this hut and, tonight, three of us came
home.

 

Now, as I write this, our hut is quiet. Very quiet. They're collecting the personal
belongings of those who went down. Just a little cardboard box to next of kin.
Across from me, Sam Catalano is writing a letter. I’m writing this. And Feener is
gloriously drunk (his last raid).

 

Three out of 33.

 

At 01:30 hours this morning I was awakened by the Charge of Quarters: “Briefing in one hour.”
This was the day. Although I dressed rather hurriedly, my mind dwelled on different thoughts. I wasn't exactly scared. Not yet, anyway,
for I was too new for that. Just curious. So I can say, curiosity prompted my thoughts and actions. I left the hut after the traditional
“See you tonight,” and I made my way to chow. Around me, in the cold, damp English air, shaded flashlights flickered on and off as
crews groped their ways to the mess hall. Inside, I got my chow and sat down with some of the boys. We shot the breeze in general,
and filled up on fresh eggs, fruit juice and hot coffee.  After that, I hightailed for briefing…after which I went to the photo lab.

 

As I went out the door, I asked the “Boss Man” for a furlough when I returned. Granted. Hell, I could have asked for anything and probably
would have had it granted – when I returned.

 

I climbed into the jeep and Joe Puster took me out to the ship. I left him at the ship with the “See you tonight,” and went to meet the crew.
I was flying with Lt. Oswald and crew in the Wizard of Oz. Our position in the formation was second element lead, lead squadron, lead
group. A very choice position in case of fighters. In that position, the ship is tucked in with ships all around it. No good for flak,

though, for it’s like a bullseye.

 

After the introductions, Oswald remarked, “This is your first; maybe it will be our lucky one.” It was.

 

I guess we all had the same thoughts in mind, and it’s strange as to what omens a man will cling to for support.

 

The time for take-off grew near and, finally, we all got aboard. Oswald warmed the engines a while, then taxied to the runway. In the faint

light of dawn, I could see the rest of the ships strung out in back of us, nose-to-tail like elephants in a circus. Finally, the green light from

Ops, and we were next. Engines were revved up to their maximum and the ship shook as both pilots stood on the brakes. She strained

like a horse at the barrier. Then brakes released and down the runway we went.

 

As we went upstairs, the sky around us became alight with flares. Each group leader was signaling to the ships that were to make up the

various element of that particular formation. This jockeying for position lasted quite a while, and we kept circling the base until the formation

began to stack up. It’s quite a job with all those ships in the air. But at last we were in formation and went on oxygen, then headed to the

point to form the Combat Wing. After forming the Combat Wing, we headed for the predetermined position where we would form the Air

Division. But when we arrived, we were late, and the Air Division had already been formed and gone. So our Combat Wing headed eastward

toward “Festung Europa.”

 

Since we had plenty of time before we reached the enemy coast, we just took it easy. Each man, after checking his position and guns,

just sat down to wait. The radio op was busy, so I checked the gun in the radio room, after which I checked my own gear.

But before long, the navigator brought us back to reality. We were making landfall. So, on went the flak gear. During that time we had
crossed the enemy coast and then hit our first bad luck. Being an hour late, we missed our escort, and that meant a fight in and out again.
All we could do is hope some of the escort would come back for us.

Then the first of the flak opened up, and I took a quick look at it. About eight bursts off the right wing and I decided my curiosity was
satisfied, so I buckled on my chute.

Suddenly, it seemed as though I was inside a boiler factory; all hell had broken loose. Our gunners started firing and it wasn’t for testing
purposes, either. Looking out of the radio hatch I saw the reason – Jerries. This party was on and Jerry was escorting us right in. Those
damn FWs were coming in all around the clock. You just couldn’t keep up with them. No sooner did one peel off and come in, another
was right behind it. Then one jolly bastard came in from 1 o’clock low. I spotted him out of the right radio window and called it out. Our
ball turret got on him, but instead of going after us, he caught our right wing man. One minute we had a right wing ship and the next it was
a ball of flame.

Calling the left waist, I asked him to swap positions with me, for these fighter attacks were what I was supposed to photograph. So
we swapped. I might add, at that temperature, which was approximately -45 degrees centigrade, it’s damn cold, but under the circumstances
a Turkish bath had nothing on us. You get so damn tense that after a few minutes all your clothes are soaking wet. I was no exception to that.

After a while the FWs left us and we didn’t know why, and cared less, until it came over the intercom: JU88s at 9 o’clock level, about
1,800 yards out. The lousy square heads sat out there, out of range of our guns, and started to lob rockets in on us broadside. All you could
see was a trail of smoke and whoosh, right through the formation. It wasn’t accurate shooting, and we lost no one to it, but it sure was a boost
for religion.

Then, after disposing of their rockets, they came in on us. They didn’t do too much damage, but they certainly left a few of their number behind
– in a blaze. That .50 caliber isn’t exactly an egg beater. And so we went on. In all that time, I still wasn’t able to get a picture of fighter attacks.
Every time I’d get set, I had to drop the camera and grab the gun.

During all that time, we were getting closer to “The B,” and the rest of the trip in was without enemy action. Finally, the navigator told us we
were on the IP. This is where we really expected to catch hell, for once on the bomb run a bomber formation can take no evasive action.
This run enables the bombardier to line up his sight and gives him control.

Well, I left the waist and went back to the radio room to get in the camera hatch. I opened the camera hatch, and, in between the flak bursts,
there was the city of Berlin. The flack was so thick round us you could walk on it; it was just solid, above, behind, below and on all sides.
The radio op told me to look out toward 1 o’clock, so I stood up out of the hatch and looked out the right window. Vapor trails at 1 o’clock high
– ME- 109s, and coming in like a swarm of hornets. I didn’t think they’d come through their own flak, but they did. Jerry was out to try and
stop us. Well, there wasn’t much use in my just looking. I had pictures to take; I could worry just as well in the hatch.

Some groups had already dropped their load and I could see the bombs bursting in the city, and took shots of it. But Jerry, in the meantime,
was charging a damn steep price of admission. We had lost our original wing ships and now their replacements were gone. Every now and
then I’d see a Fort going in down under us, some to flak and some to fighters. Some got out and some just had the deck stacked against them.
There were plenty of chutes to be seen, of both sides. At least Jerry was taking a beating also.

Finally, they found a target and bombs away. I tracked our bombs down and saw them explode smack in the middle of this factory. It was
a perfect shack job and flame and smoke rose to testify to our accuracy. It was a picture that cannot be described except through the
camera. I kept grinding away at the mess and saw other buildings around blow up one by one. Those bombardiers sure wrecked that place.
Now LET’S GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE!

Up to this point we were working for the Government of the United States of America and 130 million people. Now, we were in business for
ourselves. By this time Jerry must have really been PO’d, for the flak seemed to be getting worse, if possible, and those MEs just came ripping
in on us. To add to our troubles, the bomb bay doors wouldn’t close, so the engineer had to crank them up manually. At that altitude, that’s
a damn hard job, as is any exertion; it’s hard to breath. His oxygen mask was restricting his movements, so the engineer ripped it off and
proceeded to crank up the doors. I kept an eye on him in the meantime with an oxygen bottle handy, just in case. But after a while all was okay,
and now all we had to do was get home.

Jerry had other ideas on that subject. Once again, I swapped positions with the waist gunner, still out to get pictures of fighter attacks. Jerry
came up on our tail and his lead blew part of our intercom system out, but the tail gunner blew him out – just like a candle. This wasn’t exactly
kosher, and put us in a hell of a spot with that system out. But we managed, somehow. Well, this went on, and no sooner did we get
through with one bunch of those bastards and a new bunch would take over. Hell, there was every kind of ship and marking that the Luftwaffe
had up there, all getting their licks in. Those “bandits” kept after us until we could see the Channel, then our luck broke with us. A squadron
of P-47s came out after us and went after those Jerries, chasing them back. Those little friends sure looked mighty good to us as they took
up positions on all sides of the remaining groups. Then, the Channel was under us and we let down out of altitude.

It had been a long, hard and hectic day, and we were pooped. We circled our base, and – after the ships firing the red flares for casualties
– we landed. At the revetment we looked over the ship and it was a mess. Like a fresh slice of Swiss cheese. But, in spite of it all,
we suffered no casualties. The bombardier had a piece of flak hit him in the chest, but the flak suit took the impact; just knocked the wind
out of him. One 20mm cannon shell exploded across the navigator’s table and blew half his clothes off his back, but he wasn’t even scratched.
We picked up four 20mms in the bomb bay, one through the tail and the entire ship was riddled with flak and machine gun holes. Close.

At interrogation we all got a shot of good American whiskey and sure needed it. That damn place was like a wake. We had lost 13 ships
– 130 men, approximately, and 30 were out of our hut. Only Sam Catalano, Feener and myself left out of the 33 that went out this morning.

I’m not particularly hungry tonight, so instead of chow I’m writing this before I forget all the gory details. But I’m sure glad I’m going on leave
tomorrow. This hut is too damn quiet.

So ends Mission Number One. Only 24 more to go.

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